talking about my mother
how I remember her
bits and pieces, tiny snippets
and part of how it hurt
I have few distinct memories
of times with her and me
a number of her abusing me
to get in on the action
a few of her stuck in her past
a few of stupid ideas
a few of her getting hurt
one of her fighting spirit
I remember her in hospital
dad said that mum was sick
said that we couldn't see her
that she wasn't better yet
the day that she came home
I ran and hugged her legs
except she didn't remember me
that mummy needed space
that mummy wasn't better
the treatment didn't work
she became a housewife
she wasn't my mum anymore
we walked to school and home again
she eventually remembered me
though she wasn't my mother anymore
not how she used to be
she did as she was told
she didn't have a voice
she denied the abuse
she eventually got involved
two parts of her were fighting
the one that remembered me
remembered that I cared for her
and who she was to me
then the one that hurt me
was involved in what was done
the one that didn't care for me
I didn't like that one
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