11-10-2019 03:36 AM
11-10-2019 04:30 AM
11-10-2019 04:42 AM
A whole lot of buses sounds awful @CheerBear, but I wondered after your start yesterday. People have no idea what can be set in motion, or emotions when things like that happen.
I honestly don’t know how I am @CheerBear . I re arranged my lounge room yesterday, looking for some space, which I didn’t find. 😁😁. Kind of friend called and we walked dogs and I listened as per usual. My counsellor comes this morning, which is good, but I’m emotional and hate that.
No doubt your day will be full of unexpected.
11-10-2019 04:52 AM
11-10-2019 05:04 AM
I wish you could have today in bed @CheerBear Any chance of rest somewhere in between mr fix it and kids at school?
Hows the week end looking for you?
Pretty much everything about emotions I hate @CheerBear . I feel vulnerable. 🙃🙃 Gotta hate that one. Plus I fear rejection in that my counsellor might not see it from my point of view. That has never happened, but I prepare for every possible impossible, unexpected and then some. 😁😁😁 Its so much fun being inside my head. 😁😁😁
11-10-2019 05:31 AM
11-10-2019 06:00 AM
Oh @CheerBear lots and lots of bigs in there going on around you and inside you.
Totally unacceptable about the hot water. Really angry feels for you there. So much depends on hot water, showers, dishes, washing. All pile up. You matter @CheerBear 💕💜💕 but I get the feelings that come from uncaring owners, on a power chase. 😡😡
2/3 is a big on too, plus carrying through to today.
No wonder you feel miserable. Totally get that. 💜💜💕💕☕️☕️☕️
Listening if if it helps to vent, but understand if it doesn’t.
Not sure I can even talk about the RA mess. I’ve written it in our book. We write every week. I have a book to put down what’s happening. I write better than I talk. I get shaky messy and confused. Things come out wrong, often fall out.
Sitting with you @CheerBear Really big warm feels for you today, more than the usual. You will understand. You don’t have to write, just be, breath. That’s all you need right now @CheerBear 💜💕💜💕💜☕️☕️☕️☕️
11-10-2019 06:38 AM - edited 11-10-2019 06:39 AM
Thank you @Maggie lots, for caring and for listening and for getting how one thing can set off a whole chain of overwhelm. It feels too big and too much today. I'm on the verge of melting out big 'can't do it all' tears. My psych will catch them and I'll keep telling myself that maybe it's just a bad day until I convince myself of that.
I love your book idea. I get how spoken words can be so much harder than written ones.
I super appreciate the sitting and I'm sitting with you too, knowing vulnerability isn't all it's cracked up to be.
Here's some more of the coffee wisdom I found (while I wait for your image to clear). They're kind of upbeat which I don't love always, but when I read enough of them it kind of rubs off maybe.
Hope the day has something that feels good in it for you 💕
11-10-2019 09:58 AM
Hi @Maggie Its -3 hours here in WA.
And yes I was up late and then up early too. My typical sleep pattern, cant blame jetlag. Just a quick one, gotta do hubbys second round of meds for the morning shortly. I can see that you sre really struggling with this latest RA setback. Wanted to say I feel for you so very much. I hear you and I care very much. Its heartbreaking that our medical system is so dreadfully broken.
I also see that @CheerBear is going thru so much. My kindest thoughts and huge admiration goes out to you.
Sending lots of love to you both.
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