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13-11-2014 11:03 PM
13-11-2014 11:03 PM
Re: Mental Health Illness Depression
Hi Kristen, I feel like I just want to Cry, I love my Dad Very Much and I miss my Mum and Love her everyday, I still think about her a lot and when I see the stars I always think There is my Guardian Angel Watching over me, I just hope she and Dad would be Proud of me. Also when I see her favourites Flowers Carnations I should go and buy some and put them in my room and think of her.
Thank you for the Kind Words, I really Appreciate that, I am Trying so Hard, But Feel like a Failure always Doubting Myself because of those Bullies, That's why I have such a Low Self Esteem and Self Confidence and Hate Myself, I am Having a Meeting on Monday with Special People from My Local Hospital and I am seeing My Psychologist and also my Doctor on Wednesday and Thursday, I never seem to have time to do anything anymore.
I do eventually want to move out of Home and Live with my Boyfriend But I have to learn Lots More, Like Cooking and More Cleaning and Other Things, I have never had to do Shopping on my Own, I am Not Used to that and am Struggling, My Carer is so Wonder Her Name is Alex, We get on very well, My Dad is actually my Usual carer when he is well, so at the moment I am Helping him.
I was thinking of asking Alex, to help me set up a Roster, As I have 2 Dogs to Feed, Washing to do and Cleaning and Cooking and Other Tasks, My Neice has Been Providing Meals on the everyday for dad and me except on Tuesday's and Wednesday's as I get Paid Fortnightly, I have an Off Pension Week and a Pension Week, My Neice Does His Tablets, and I help pay the Bills when I get Paid by using the Cards.
But I always feel like she is taking over and Telling me what to do and How to do it, She has a Husband a Farm and Kids and Animals and They both work in a Hostel Care as well, I really do Appreciate her help But I was she would ease up on me.
I will let you know what happens with my Appointments, I am Trying so Hard, I too have Severe Depression but I guess I don't feel as Important to her as my dad is? I so miss Going to the Movies, At Least I get to See My Wonderful Loving Boyfriend Neil, He is amazing, I love him with all of my heart.
All I want is for my Dad to get Better, It wont be quick but I know he is Strong and will get back to his old self, It's Very Distressing for me seeing him like that, It was just like when mum had her Strokes, I feel Helpless and Blamed myself and Blame myself for dad getting sick like me, I wonder If he got it off me.
My Boyfriend and Friends say I'm Strong but I don't Believe it. Hope to talk again I think I need to talk to Lifeline and that Thank you.
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13-11-2014 11:06 PM
13-11-2014 11:06 PM
Re: Mental Health Illness Depression
Thank you That Picture is Beautiful.
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14-11-2014 10:02 PM
14-11-2014 10:02 PM
Re: Mental Health Illness Depression
Hi Pie,
Your last comment in your post - My Boyfriend and Friends say I'm Strong.
From reading your posts, I actually tend to agree. THe fact that you are willing to come onto these forums and share yourself the way you do shows to me such strength indeed. And I can also see that you are a very caring and loving person.
You are certainly going through a very hard time, but believe me, you are doing the right thing in reaching out to people for help. I think that's strength in itself and should really be admired.
Please take care and let us know how you are doing.
Hobbit.
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15-11-2014 02:47 AM
15-11-2014 02:47 AM
Re: Mental Health Illness Depression
it is also sad to hear of all the guilt you place upon yourself. I say you as I believe no one else blames you. Therefore please let it go and be gentle with yourself as you have so much happening right now.
I must say I agree with what Hobbit has written . I hope you read and reread it often. Please takecare of you as you certainly do deserve it and need it.
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16-11-2014 05:46 AM
16-11-2014 05:46 AM
Re: Mental Health Illness Depression
Hi Everyone, I finally spoke to a Person from Suicide Call Back Line, I cant sleep and feel Exhausted I am not feeling well at all today, Right now, I wish I could sleep and not wake up, I don't know how I'm going to get through the day or even a second or Minute, I'm feeling Dizzy now, I was in Tears on the Phone. I will try and get some sleep
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16-11-2014 05:06 PM
16-11-2014 05:06 PM
Re: Mental Health Illness Depression
Hi @pie
It takes a lot of strength to seek out help like you did.
Did you manage to get much sleep? It's astonishing the impact lack of sleep can have on our mental health. This particuarly isn't helpful with all you're going through at the moment.
Other than suicide call back service, do you have other supports (eg: your carer and your partner) that you could reach out to?
I hope things have improved for you today and you're looking after yourself.
We're here if you need us.
Take care,
Nik
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18-11-2014 11:30 PM
18-11-2014 11:30 PM
Re: Mental Health Illness Depression
Would you think about calling your GP and seeing if you can be referred to either a mental health plan and see a psychologist, or seeing if you could access support in your area..living with suicidal feelings can be really really scary, but I think you will find many of us have travelled this road, and we have lived through it..sometimes it us getting through the next minute, hour, day...
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20-11-2014 12:13 PM
20-11-2014 12:13 PM
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Hi Alessandra, I am not well @ the Moment Thank you for your kind words, My Blood Sugar was 1.9 Earlier I have to go and Make myself some lunch and then ring the Nurse back @ the Doctors Surgery @ 12.30, I cant remember what I wrote back to you. I really hate feeling unwell.
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20-11-2014 12:14 PM
20-11-2014 12:14 PM
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20-11-2014 09:11 PM
20-11-2014 09:11 PM
Re: Mental Health Illness Depression
Fingers crossed re your tests and maybe rebook your appointment with your psychologist, he/she might have good advice re coping with stress you are under.. Take care...virtual hug Pie..