My special place

[Snowie]

So today started out ok. Had a psych appointment, it went ok.  Spoke about a few things coming up that are triggers for me. Talked about how to handle them and what things I can do to try and help myself.

Then went and saw mum in respite. She was meant to come home tomorrow but wanted to come home straight away. So brought her home, went and brought her some groceries and got her settled in. She said that she missed me, it was really hard when I was away, if I go away again she would struggle and I could have called her more when I was away (I called her every second day)

My stress levels went from about a 1 straight to a 10. The last two weeks feels like it was months ago now.

I'm so confused. She said she wanted to come home straight away, yet at the same time said she liked it in there and wants to go there permanently. I don't know what to do or where to go from here.

[Bow]

That’s really hard @Snowie  coming home from a really good time away and then coming back to the reality of what ya gotta deal with on a daily basis. 

could potentially be interesting to see what your mum says about the place in the coming days and weeks, as to whether it’s something she’s keen to do more long term? That she wanted to come home straight away cause it’s familiar and normal, but that she actually did like it, enjoyed what she got to do and can see the benefits? I hope that makes sense. Sorry if it doesn’t!

[Snowie]

Hi @Bow 

No, it makes sense hon.

I do wonder how she would go in there when I am around. When I can go in a few times a week and visit her or take her out, and also when I'm just a phone call away. I also think she would do better if she could set up the room how she likes it. Others there had photos, furniture, etc in their own in their rooms. They set them up the way they like it with I guess you could say, comfort things. Because she was only in there for two weeks she only took clothes and toiletries. Except for a bed and chair, the room was quite bare.

I have spoken to the lady who deals with all admissions and she is going to look into permanent care and if there is a waiting list or not. 

I think I expected reality, just hard to accept it. I wasn't surprised at what she said to me. In a way I guess I expected it. 

[AuntGlow]

Good evening @Snowie - I can see why, what a view!!

I think I am getting sick (as we all are!). How is your health today? 💛

[Snowie]

Thanks @AuntGlow If I could live there I would! It is actually really nice in the summer too. Always a great view.

I'm ok today, just a bit stressed. S is back at school tomorrow so holidays well and truly over!

No one has been sick yet in our house, so fingers crossed it continues like that.

I'm sorry to hear that you are getting sick. It's so hard, especially when it's cold, getting through this time of the year. I hope you are able to give yourself time to rest and not get too sick.

[AuntGlow]

Ah, I can imagine the start of term is really stressful! What do you have to do prep-wise? @Snowie 

Awww, thank you. I hope so too - it's definitely a sign to slow down. 💛

[Snowie]

I don't have to do much except set my alarm @AuntGlow and make sure I don't sleep through it!!

My son is 17 and in year 12 so he pretty much gets himself up and ready. Sometimes he sleeps in, but he is normally pretty good at waking himself up.

I did ask him today if he had done all his holiday homework. He said he had. He is normally good with that too.

[Snowie]

Today has been hard.

Took mum to an appointment then up the street. She got upset and angry and of course I was the one it gotten taken out on. Told off for always correcting her. Hard when she goes to pay for food with her health care card and I have to tell her it's the wrong card. 

I can see the decline, I know she's struggling, but I can't do anything.

Also, mother in law back in hospital today. A few things wrong so they called an ambulance. Just waiting for more news.

Prn again

[Snowie]

More bad news

It doesn't matter

Thanks anyway

[AuntGlow]

Hi @Snowie, 

Today sounds really hard... I am sorry to hear so much is going on with your family, that must be a lot for you to manage on top of your own mental health. 

What can I do to be there for you tonight?  💛