@Lostandalone
Since this was written in January I am not sure where you are at now?
All I can say is you need to take your own control back. Hard to do when things feel out if control. Even more reason to take back control. I am only advising based on my recent mental breakdown. We want everything around us to just stop. We are responsible for making it stop.
If you don't feel comfortable with doing something, don't do it but first question why to check in with yourself that it us not a belief system you have created that us running on the same pattern.
You may it may not be a high achiever but even high achievers needs support. I hope you did go to the therapist and they were able to assist you.
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