for those strange people who love rabbits

[Sparky79]

@Bunniekins I have hope, I have to keep that hope, have faith in the future or else I might as well have succeeded in what I survived.

[Bunniekins]

@Sparky79   oh Sparky79  it sounds to me like the universe is playing the cards where they are falling.  can you sit back and see where they finally lay?  i do hope bub is alright.  I hope you are alright at the end of the day.

[Sparky79]

@Bunniekins Ah that's the thing, I've seen the universe test me like this before. I mean seriously It's like I succeeded in taking my life, but are still here being punished for surviving, the universe paying back karma for what I did.

[Sparky79]

@Bunniekins with every little or big thing that happens being linked back to me and the attempt to escape this life. So everyday more and more anger, resentment and bitterness is thrown at me, which then adds more and more pain, guilt and suffering on my soul. 

[Sparky79]

@Bunniekins The only thing keeping me here is I swore to them that I would never take my own life, which if they aren't part of my life, what does it matter whether I swore or not. But they are still in my life and I am in their hearts so I will keep my word.

[Sparky79]

@Bunniekins lol I think I'm on the verge of getting an email, you know the welfare check ones..... better change subject soon.

[Bunniekins]

@Sparky79   my poor cancerian.  who does care and feels every jab that gets thrown at him. rest easy in the knowledge that the universe will sort things out for the best for you as you have done nothing intentially wrong to anyone so should not be suffering. xx

[Sparky79]

@Bunniekins Intentional or non intentional, the outcome of my actions has destroyed the lives of not only me but those around me whom I love and care about. And that is what I carry with me, my family and children have no idea, I refuse to allow them into my life to destroy what I have unintentionally destroyed myself whilst rebuilding

[Bunniekins]

@Sparky79   i wish i could say something to help but everything i think of seems meaningless and i cant think of the word .... just whenever you need a friend write to bunniekins and i will be there 🙂  .  even if it is just to listen but know this Sparky79 you have so many people on this forum who care about you so please dont do anything stupid 🙂

[Sparky79]

@Bunniekins aww that's so sweet, thankyou. I won't do anything stupid and if it did come to that I wouldn't make the mistake of saying goodbye again.