20-12-2017 02:03 AM
Hello. I'm new here but have accessed SANE phone chat with success, so given I'm not feeling the best I though the forum might be an addition help.
My partner has major depressive disorder, mood disorder and exhibits bipolar and BPD traits. She's also addicted to cannabis.
I can't remember the last time we were alone together and she was sober, she's been in this current episode since September. The days drag on... she's a different person.
Today I found a birthday card from her from this year saying she adored me. You wouldn't hear those words fall from her mouth atm. Completely emotionally unavailable and pot is her best friend.
I had previously been fairly up beat and positive about the situation until I found the old card this morning, it's just sent me into an extremely negative head space. The fact that she has no intention to cut down or quit as well as is not wanting SSRI's just makes things worse. This episode started when she abruptly went off yet another medication that was in her opinion not helping.
I just feel so down and hopeless. I don't have anything to look forward to with her the way things are.
20-12-2017 05:30 PM
Hello @Medusa13 and welcome to the Forums
I’m sorry to hear how hard things have been with your partner lately. It’s so hard when someone we love is behaving in a way that is out of character and we feel unable to connect with them.
There are lots of other Forum members who have supported or are supporting their partners through challenging times. @inertia is also new to the forums and has posted over here about his experience supporting his wife and @Littletink has posted here about supporting a partner. I think there may be some similarities in your experiences.
I hope things get a little easier after finding the birthday card this morning. Please keep posting – there is always someone to listen here.
21-12-2017 09:42 AM
Hi @Medusa13..... and welcome to the forums.
I have had a teary (leaky) day today. My husband is unwell with mh issues, but doesn’t recognise that he is ... so I l ikk’try to focus my attention on the things that are routine and manageable.
It is so difficult to watch them so lost, but short of being involuntarily admitted to hospital, until they are prepared to admit that life isn’t working very well for them this way, or they suffer a health crisis bad enough to land them in hospital, there is not much else you can do except hold the gospel posts steady and look after yourself.
I have heard that carers standing by does make a difference. Your partner is trying to numb out some sort of pain, it seems, but numbing pain also numbs everything else, which they don’t seem to realise.
I have found that being on these forums is an excellent support to me looking after myself .... people here innately understand what it is like being a carer in a mi situation .... some carers themselves struggle with personal mi issues, and we are prone to both carers burnout and situational depression ourselves. Self-care is essential to keeping is strong and well enough to persevere.
Pleased to meet you @Medusa13 ....
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