Hey team,
I’m not sure what I last posted but noticed a couple of check ins!! Thankyou!!!
It did turn out to be a bit of an up and down week.
Wednessay went to the gp and he ever so gently and caringly patched my wounds. He was so respectful. I was in such a shaky state and had really struggled to even show him the wounds.
He just gave me time. We had to move into the treatment room at one stage. He understands that this can be difficult for me. He just waited as I froze in the hallway. He kindly directed me in and just reminded me to slow my breath. Then with his beautiful bedside manner asked me, will it be ok if I close the curtain. I nodded.
I almost cried whej when he washed the wounds so carefully. Not because of the pain. Thought that was there. But because he gave me such care and compassion. When all I felt was guilt.
His geunine care for me without judgment was the exact antidote to all the shame and self blame I was trapped in. I just cried.
He put his hands on my shoulder and said “mudsum (name) I know you’re hurting, and I’m glad you showed me)
i melted.
Its taken me so long to find a gp I trust but it maeks so much difference.
After that it’s been up wards and on wards. The ptsd will still be there. Triggers lerk in every corner but hate pretty decent week after woods .
Also I took one of my little puffer fish (child) our tonight it was really speacial.
Thabks to those that checked in
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